Complicated emotion

I’m freshly back from my second mile-long walk today. 🙂 Yep, I’m trying to encourage this young lady to come along and join us already. 🙂 I’m not sure how much faith I have in the whole walking thing working, but there’s not much else I can do. My mom said no jumping-jacks! 😀 I was thinking about it earlier today when I was feeling uncomfy that it really is a strange thing to be “looking forward” to something like labor and delivery. I mean… it’s certainly not something I enjoy by any stretch of the imagination, and yet I’m so anxious for it to get here. It’s not the same as looking forward to Christmas because at least then the thing you’re anticipating is fun! 🙂 But it’s not like looking forward to the dentist either. Which if you know me is pretty much torture! I think I’d ever so much rather be water boarded than sit in that dentist’s chair!! And yes L&D are much preferred as well!! 😉 So it’s a weird feeling, looking forward to something unfun, but with really great results.

That’s where I find myself. I’ve been having contractions on and off for days now, so it’s hard for me to say it’ll be soon. Though I know it will HAVE to be sometime fairly soon. Even though right now I feel like I’m going to be hugely pregnant forever, I know there WILL be an end to it. So I’m attempting to enjoy the last little while. Enjoy the baby squiggles that keep me up at night and the hiccups that keep me humored during the day. I’m enjoying the time with my lads while I can still “hold” the baby and manage to keep room in my lap for two other wiggly ones. Enjoying the energy surges, and enjoying the sleep (such as it is) before all of our worlds change. It’ll be a good change, but I’m still enjoying the “old” before the new normal arrives.

Well, I’m off to make us some fried rice for dinner and then maybe once it cools off a bit we’ll take another family walk and see if we can get our family count up by one. 😉

Happy Long weekend, friends!

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