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School Starts

Tomorrow… Which is still too soon for me. 🙂 I’m dragging my feet on it this year. Qade is going into second grade and as such his subjects are ramping up. I didn’t get as much “remedial” stuff done this summer as I had wanted to so that means that I know I have to be tough and stick to the schedule and make sure things are not falling through the cracks. Yes, we use a video teacher, but it still means a lot of work for me. So I’m kind of dreading it. Qade is not always the easiest to teach. However, I’ve split things up a bit more this year with a “homework” time in the late afternoon for us to finish up seatwork. Hopefully having things spread out more will help him focus when he doesn’t have so many things to do all at once. And hopefully having a written schedule will help him know what needs to be done when. But still *sigh* I ordered a maze book for Myles that will be here later in the week and he will work on “tricky mazes” as he likes to call them while Qade is doing his homework. I think that’ll help both of them be diligent. I also scheduled iPad time for AFTER homework for very strategic purposes. 😉 Myles is thrilled to be starting school again, and in fact can’t wait! I’m so happy that he loves to learn! He told me, with a big grin, today, “I can’t wait for school to start tomorrow!! I want it to start today!!” I appreciate his infections enthusiasm because it helps me to keep my chin up a bit and ignore the sinking feeling in my tummy. I should be over this by now, it’s not our first rodeo, but each year I dread school. Maybe it’s something I’ll always have to fight to overcome. Because deep deep down I’m so thankful that I can teach my kids!! I’m thankful that Stuart is a provider for our family so that I can stay home and be the main influence in their lives. I’ll never get over that. And deep deep down I’m happy to have more structure to our days and help our kiddos learn new things. We have a designated “school room” this year though there still isn’t an actual wall between it and the boys bedroom, but I think it’s going to help with... read more

Math Moments

Sometimes I’m so completely not ready for spiritual discussions with my kids because they pop out of the most random life moments. One more reason to be “in the moment” with my littles! Today as Qade was grumbling his way through half of his Math page one of those times happened. He was supposed to be writing numbers from 170 to 200. As I sat there barely able to keep my patience with him he asked if this was how old people were when they died. I replied, kind of humored, that no it wasn’t, it was WAY too old and then explained that we never know at what age someone will die. I said sometimes babies die, sometimes children die and sometimes people live to be all the way to 100! His next question was, “If babies die, they will go to Hell.” I was happy to tell him that God takes little babies to heaven when they die because they can’t understand that Jesus came to die for their sins. Then things got a little serious. He began to ask questions about if children would go to Hell. I again fell back on the standby, when people do not accept Jesus then they can’t go to Heaven. He started thinking about that one, and the next questions were staggerers for me. He asked what if they haven’t ever learned about God? And why do people who don’t know about God go to Hell? How do you explain concepts like this to these little inquiring minds? To Qade, God is a fact because we have taught him so. He’s just starting to grasp the ideas that it is a choice to believe or not believe. But yeah, what about the children who have never heard about Jesus? It’s so hard for me to explain to my son a topic which I myself have struggled over as a child, and even as an adult? Would God really sentence people to an eternity without Him when they’d never heard? Of course I know the answer is not at all simple, and certainly not at all something that I, who have a very fundamental grasp on it, could explain to him. I finally told him that the Bible tells us about creation and how God made the heavens and the whole earth and everything in it. And that when people look at it, they know that there is a God who... read more

Downton Abbey Season 4 Premier

So we are Downton Abbey fans! It took us awhile to jump on board that train. We do not have t.v, cable or satelite. I can’t tell you how thankful I am that we made that decision for our family way back before we had kids! So what we’ve done in the past to get random entertainment was sometimes Hulu or Netflix, and it’s fun to get “hooked” on a series from time to time as long as it isn’t all the time. 🙂 We’ve seen CSI (till they got rid of Grissom and then it just kinda fell apart and we quit), some of the Doomsday Preppers shows, ha, food network like shows, some of those “reality” shows like Undercover Boss. Just whatever, whenever. By the time we caught on to Downton Abbey it was already in it’s 3’rd season so we had to go back and “catch up” on Season’s 1 & 2. While I was totally intrigued by the whole time period and the way it showcased both above and below stairs stories, I confess that at some points in the first episode I was about ready to say, “Nah, not for me.” Eventually though we came to really enjoy the show. Although, like everyone else, I was less than thrilled with the way they kept killing off the characters. Though I suppose as a writer you’re in a bit of a bind when a main character says that they are not coming back. Anyway, it was with great anticipation that we looked forward (FINALLY) to the premier of season four on Sunday night, and I have to admit… I wasn’t awed. It took me awhile to get used to the new hair styles on every character, but I could deal with that. What seemed a little disapointing to me was that the story lines all seemed… reused. I mean, couldn’t we get Thomas to be nice for once? Especially considering that without Mr. Bate’s help he wouldn’t have a job at all? Couldn’t Lady Grantham EVER see through the deceit of servants instead of implicitly believing everything they say? Especially since said servants have been less than reliable in the past? Can’t Lady Edith finally decide if she is going to make something of her life instead of chasing men around the country? Can’t Lord Grantham begin to accept the advice and input of people around him without acting like such a jerk about it... read more

Birthday Party Prep and a Gentle Rebuke

So our little De Bella turned 3 on the 21st. It’s so hard to believe that she’s been 2 all this time! She has seemed so “grown up” lately. Probably because of the two other little squirmers who invaded our lives. 😉 Anyway, I decided to do a princess party for Ella because she LOVES all things pink, pretty, girly and princessy. 🙂 Where she got this, I cannot say because I was like the “mud princess” if anything growing up. 😉 So one afternoon a day or so before the party I was trying to get decorations hung, stuff done, goodie bags filled and so on to make it all flow easier on the actual day. I’m not so good at this kind of thing, it’s just not my forte at all. So I was feeling a little stressed out because ya know, stuff, when Ella and I sat down to fill the goodie bags for her friends. We had little slinky’s and sunglasses and various other treasures to put in the bags. I was in, “lets get er done” mode but Ella, unhampered by the “pressure” of creating a perfect party was enjoying the process. She needed to try on each pair of sunglasses before putting them in a bag. Stretch out the little slinky’s to make sure they worked, eww over the bugs and snakes that we got for the “boy” bags and aww over the bracelets and necklaces for the girls. It was at this point when I was on the brink of rushing her through this process that a little gentle rebuke came to my heart. Here I was just trying to get through another task on my “to-do” list, and my sweet little girl was taking time to enjoy the process and make a memory worth having. I’m so glad that God tugged on my heart just then before I lost my patience and rushed her through what she was obviously enjoying doing. I so often want to “just get through it” on lots of parts of my days. Unfortunately some of those parts involve my kids. I rush them through things, snap at them for “doinking” instead of doing and just in general make the entire situation uncomfortable for everyone. Why can’t I just take a breath, grit my teeth if I must, and slow down a bit to enjoy some of the processes with my kids? Sure sometimes they have to... read more


I’ve been wanting to write this post for weeks now, but I just don’t feel like I have the right words to say what I mean. Regardless I’m just going to plow ahead and hope that it comes out in an understandable way. 🙂 Now that we have our two little miracles home and healthy it’s hard to remember the terror of that night 8 weeks ago when Stu and I pulled away from our house en route to the hospital. I knew then that the girls were on the way, but didn’t know how it would all play out. I was trying to keep it together on the outside, but inside I was completely terrified. Not for me, but for our littlest ones who would be joining the world too soon. All I could do at that point was pray. I desperately wanted others to be holding us up in prayer too, but it was 4 in the morning! I texted my closest friend, because I knew she wouldn’t mind if it did wake her up, and at 5am I called my Dad. Then when I was able I posted a status to my facebook friends asking for prayers for our peaches as well. Through the whole adventure of the ambulance rides and plane trip, I spent most of it praying. I’m ashamed to say that my own prayer life is no where close to what it should be. But I’m so glad that my God doesn’t hold that against me, and that He is so willing to listen even if I have not been faithful to talk to Him! The next few days at the hospital and through the delivery and first ‘touchy’ moments with our girls I experienced the buoying effects of prayer like I have NEVER known before in my life! That first day in the hospital, after the relief of knowing we were in good hands with the staff and facilities there, I was able to check in to cyber-land and was completely blown away with the messages, comments and e-mails that I was getting from people who were specifically praying for us!! There were whole churches full of people that I will never know personally that were praying for us and our babies! People all over the country were coming together in prayer and lifting us up! It was amazing! My perspective on prayer has been completely changed through this experience. There have... read more

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