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I had completely planned to whine and mope and vent all about this really bad day. Sometimes it helps to just blab it out even if it’s to the cyber world. However, I changed my mind at the last minute. There is nothing anyone reading this can/could do to make this day less bad, and reading all about the in’s and out’s of it would do none of YOU any good except to maybe help you feel sorry for me. But I don’t need to be pitied. I’m very blessed! I have a wonderful little family! Two very active, healthy boys. One little sweet pea that I’m learning more about each day! A hard working hubby who is strong for me in those moments when I’m not so strong myself. So even though today was not so good, life IS good!!

And I’m sure tomorrow will be better…… right?

Anyway, I’ll just leave you with a photo from this weekend that I think is sweet. Happy Tuesday!

I have to let you know about something that happened this afternoon. You know before Ella came I’d been babysitting 2 little girls. I’ve blogged about the ups and downs of that whole experience along the way. I was looking forward to being more mobile and better able to deal with all the kids after the baby came. However, since Ella has been here, adjusting to the new “normal” and realizing once again just how much effort a newborn takes had really dampened my desire to have other kids in the house.

I committed to it already though, and was perfectly ready to see it through. I mean, what’s a couple more kids. Ha ha ha ha!! I’ve just been dreading it though and wondering how long I could possibly put them off. I did tell them that I’d need time after the baby came, and they were so good about it telling me to “take my time.” However, the sitter that they had lined up for their girls during my “baby leave” wasn’t working out so well. I had hints of that, but hadn’t really “checked up” on them because I didn’t want to feel pressure to have the girls back before I was ready. Every time the thought of them coming over, and they really are great girls, passed through my brain my heart would sink. So I’d been doing my best to banish the thought.

Well, today the girl’s mom called. She had sent over a package of diapers and a sweet card for Ella, so we talked about the baby and how she and I were doing. She then told me how the sitter wasn’t working out so well, and that something had “come up” with a gal who is actually going to move in with them and watch their girls full time. She wanted to let me know that this was going to work out for them and would be better all around so I wouldn’t have the “extra” kids to deal with! Wow!! What a relief!! I honestly don’t think that I knew just how much of a burden it had been on me until it was completely lifted. It was obvious to her and me too that God had worked this out for all of us! She had told me before that she didn’t think she could teach this year if I wasn’t watching her girls, and I was thankful to be a blessing that way, but boy I’m so happy that God had this “back up plan” in mind the whole time! I didn’t want to have to tell her at some point that I just couldn’t watch her girls and then leave her hanging. But knowing me, I wouldn’t have anyway, I’d have just done it and been miserable.

This afternoon just felt like a HUGE sigh! I felt so much lighter and happier knowing that I can invest all of my time now into my kids and helping them adjust and grow. The boys have been doing so well with Ella, they just love her! But I can tell that there is a certain “emotionalness” about them right now that I need to be sensitive to. They’ve become such good pals, helping each other out, playing together, talking together, and of course getting in trouble together. I wasn’t looking forward to reintroducing their “friends” to our every day life since it seems to pull them apart somewhat.

So it’s so great that God knows, and He cares, and His timing and ways are simply perfect!! I’m ecstatic! And while I really did want to help contribute to the family income, it just wasn’t worth it at this time. Now I can focus on my family and work on my photography. If I can get clients for CDO Studios then I can still contribute with much LESS time invested. Pray that we get some “bites” from our blitz at the high school!

There you have it in a few more words than I meant to write. Good news!!! Happy weekend!

And I’m giving up baking soda in favor of shampoo! At least for now. As I washed my hair in the hospital, using the shampoo that was in my bag, it felt SOOOOO good!! And my hair actually LOOKED good after being washed too! It didn’t seem so dull and lifeless. I will use the soda wash and vinegar rinse once every couple of weeks for a clarifying treatment, but on a regular basis I’m just not loving it. I am going to try to make some homemade shampoo bars that don’t contain all the chemicals, of course, but seem like they’d be pretty hydrating. It’s just going to be a matter of time till I have the time for a project like this. Right now my life revolves around baby feedings and little boys. I have no idea what I’m going to do when Mom leaves!! I just keep telling myself, “Women have been having kids for a LONG time and they somehow managed to care for the newborns and the others, so buck up because you can too!” Ha ha ha!

Also another thing I’ve finally let the gavel fall on is the shower situation. I’ve moved my operation to the downstairs bathroom. The shower in the master bedroom is very tiny. As I got huger and huger it felt more and more like taking a shower in a coffin! Ugh! And now that I’m not so huge, it’s still not working so well for me. There’s nowhere to “go” if the spray from the shower head is uncomfortable, ya know? So now I’m using the “boys” bathroom. It’s a small tub, but there’s still more space, and while the water temp doesn’t seem to stay stable as well, the pressure is much better than upstairs. So I can actually get through an entire showering process without trying to rinse off in tiny drops of water! Ya gotta take your ups with your downs, but I have decided that should we ever buy/build our own house that one of the “splurges” will certainly be a LARGE shower and a garden tub… those are the things I dream about!

Anyway, things are going well with our little love. She is doing great at sleeping. I’ve been getting up with her each night around 2ish and then she’s been sleeping after that till 6 or 7. Can’t complain about that!! Nursing is not going so smoothly. It’s been a struggle with each of my kids and I SO wish that it didn’t start out so horrible!!! Yesterday was a not-so-good-pretty-much-very-bad-day as far as that goes. Not for baby, she’s doing great and eating like a champ! But mommy doesn’t always feel so good. Still today has been much much better, so while I’m not ready to say I see the light at the end of the tunnel, I at least think that it might be there somewhere. Pray for us if you think of it! Thanks!!

I didn’t “weigh in” today so I don’t know where I stand as far as the baby weight, but I went to the gas station to get a coke for me and a Dr. Pepper for Stu at lunch time today. As I caught a glimpse of myself in the windows I realized that I’m going to have to ‘suck it in’ because now I no longer look pregnant, just FAT! Ha ha ha!! It was pretty funny! Oh well, it’s worth it and one day it’ll be gone…. I hope!

Have a great weekend, Friends! I’m planning on it!